Have you ever wanted to pray but thought “I just don’t know where to begin” or “I just don’t know the words to say“? Ever felt inadequate or inarticulate when it comes to expressing your thoughts, needs, hurt or questions to God? Maybe praying is something that used to be easy for you, maybe it’s … More Praying without words.
I am a problem spotter. I spot things that need improving, ways things can be made better and weaknesses in things. I spot something new and exciting and almost immediately want bigger and better. I have a critical eye and often prepare for the worst. I rarely get my hopes up ‘too high’ and I … More Be expectant.
Have you ever heard the phrase: The longest distance to travel is the 18 inches between our head and our heart. I know. Cliched or what? I can barely believe I just typed it, and actually started this post with it. I promise not to say it ever again. Never. But there’s an ironic truth … More 18 inches
This heart of mine is physical and strong, thudding in my chest; quickens with fear and joy, steady in focus. This heart of mine is soft and mouldable, longing to change and be changed, to be shared and to grow; it hardens upon rejection and melts with redemption. This heart of mine is wild and … More Poetry: This God-ward heart
I write this as someone with a heart to change the way I live, someone who does not have this sorted (not nearly), but who is wrestling with how to go about this. How to become the hands and feet of a better way forward – wanting to live out a life which, if replicated, would … More Loving from afar.
Like many I’m sure, I have considered leaving my church. For anyone reading this who goes to the same church as me: panic not, I’m afraid you’re stuck with me for the foreseeable future. “The worship isn’t free enough” “The prayer isn’t often enough” “The talks arent applicable enough” “The service isn’t long enough” (you can … More Church, humans and grit.
Did you know that the bible never actually talks about forgiving yourself? It obviously mentions God’s lavish grace and forgiveness for us, and also mentions how we should forgive those who do wrong by us – but never us forgiving ourselves. For a while I’d been struggling with the concept of forgiving myself. Not with … More As if I’m free.
It’s the beginning of a new term for me, and my final year at uni has begun. Already I find myself tired, drained and in a continuum of low level stress. Each year of growing up brings extra dimensions of life into the picture, more people to care about, an ever nearing future to figure … More When prayer becomes just another thing on the to-do-list.
I don’t know about you but I find it quite tricky to think about something for very long without really wanting to do something practical in the way of solving/resolving/fixing/sorting it. If I’m planning something or I’m thinking through a disagreement or I’m figuring out a problem, I want to be able to solve it … More To be seen and not heard
Ever felt like you’re observing what’s happening before your eyes and you have no permission to participate? I’ve felt like that quite often if I’m honest. From seeing an overwhelmed parent telling their child off in the supermarket, to seeing a friend make bad choices or even having someone close tell me something about myself … More A safe distance